This past week has been one of the best weeks of my life :D
After living in and out of a ‘nightmare’ for the last 12 years through my brother’s addiction, my stepfathers brain tumour, the loss of my older brother and stepfather, and my mother’s addiction, combined with my own negative thinking, and worrying too much what other people think, I finally feel like I am living my life the way it was meant to be lived!
I no longer worry about other peoples’ acceptance and if they like me or not. I like myself just fine the way I am thank you and that’s enough for me! :)
I finally feel like I have properly dealt with the grief of losing some of the most important people in my life, and accepted the fact that I cannot control or help my mother and in order for me to move forward, I need to let her go to find her own path. I will always hope that she grows out of her ‘victim’ thinking and takes control of her life in a positive way, but my happiness no longer depends on it.
The old saying “smile and the world smiles with you” is sooooo 100% right and I truly wish everyone who has ever struggled with life situations or themselves could see/feel/experience the light and joy that I have found this past week which enables them to move forward instead of dwelling on the past. I am not entirely sure what brought this on but I have been working hard on myself, my thoughts and doing a lot of self-reflection over the past few months and think my session with Vernon Frost last week just catapulted me forward. In saying this I have to add that all my previous sessions with Body Talk practitioner Justin Furness have been a huge help in letting go of of my feelings of resentment, anger and hopelessness.
I am beyond excited for the future and everything life still has to offer me. Even if it still comes with hardships, I know it will only make me stronger and teach me the lessons I still need to learn.
Once you have experienced the darkest hours of your life, and have come through at the end smiling, It’s a lot harder for small things to overwhelm you. I don’t doubt for a minute that I will still experience days of worry and stress, but I no longer fear that I might not have the strength to overcome them or that there might not be light at the end of the dark tunnel.
To everyone out there who is still smiling after a rough time, cheers to YOU. You are awesome:) it can be too easy to follow the negative voices in your head and succumb to depression, but if you can rise above that and just focus on moving forward – I can promise you that good times will come to you and you will reach a stage where you are SO GLAD you didn’t give up!!!
One more thing > don’t ever be afraid to ask for help. That’s been one of the biggest lessons I have learned in life. Everyone goes through tough times and EVERYONE needs help at some point. Don’t be too shy or embarrassed to ask for it.